Today I would 19 weeks and 3 days pregnant. When I lost my baby, I thought that God was punishing me for something I had done wrong. Did I not pray enough? Did I not read my Bible enough? Was it because I had missed some church services? The first few days were very hard. I kept thinking that God was just punishing me for something. Why would he take our baby? He knows how much we want children. For a few weeks I was angry. Why me? Why did God have to take my baby? Then, last Sunday, a lady from our church got up with her family and sang a song. It was called "I Have Been Blessed". The chorus goes " I have been blessed. God's so good to me. Precious are His thoughts of you and me. No way I could count them, there's not enough time, so I'll just thank Him for being so kind. God has been good, so good. I have been blessed." It goes on to list just a few ways that God has shown us His love. That is when I really realized that God didn't take away my child to punish me. Ecclesiastes 3:1-2,4 says "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; (4) A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
God's timing is perfect and it just wasn't time for us to have another child. Right now is our time to mourn the loss of our baby. In God's perfect timing, we will have our time to dance and rejoice over having another child. Until then, I have plenty of reasons to be thankful. God has blessed me tremendously. Here are just a few reasons I have to be thankful.
Thank you Lord for blessing my in so many ways.
*If you google "I have been blessed lyrics" you can read the words to the song I mentioned above.
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